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herhiddenthoughts
Mood: Excited. Quotes: “Like a rainbow fading in the twinkling of an eye, gone too soon.”
你最近还好吗?
Friday, December 04, 2009, 3:09 AM
Bumped into someone close to you today and the route home was filled with random thoughts once more.

After having a proper conversation with him, I realized how fast things have changed within the past month.

How well you've been doing, how fast your life has moved on and how busy you are.

It's been a long time.

你最近还好吗?


挑一张耶诞卡写上满满祝福的话  
地址写的是心底 你能不能收到它 
天有点冷 风有点大 城市宁静而喧哗  
这一个冬天我得一个人走回家 

问自己习惯了吗  
没有你每到夜裏回声变得好大  
有没有什麽好方法让寂寞更听话

你最近还好吗 
是不是也在思念裏挣扎  
你说会记得我 还记得吗  
你最近还好吗  
忙碌吗累吗 心还会痛吗  
如果真不得已忘了我  
快向快乐出发

有再多的牵挂都已没有权利表达  
旧情人给的问候比陌生人还尴尬  
昨天远了 明天还长 回忆模糊但巨大  
这样的深夜眼泪要怎样不流下 

问自己习惯了吗
没有你每到夜裏回声变得好大  
有没有什麽好方法让寂寞更听话 

你最近还好吗 
是不是也在思念裏挣扎  
你说会记得我 还记得吗
你最近还好吗  
忙碌吗累吗 心还会痛吗  
如果真不得已忘了我  
快向快乐出发 

你最近还好吗 
是不是也在思念裏挣扎  
你说会记得我 还记得吗  
你最近还好吗  
忙碌吗累吗 心还会痛吗 
如果真不得已忘了我  
快向快乐出发 

You made a right choice in leaving me because if it wasn't for that choice you made, I wouldn't have picked my life where I left off, became stronger and having the life I am having now.

I realize how you become more like a fading dream as each day passes and it's as if you never really existed in my life. Only when the memories are stirred, then will I remember.

Your looks, scent and voice seems to be fading away.

You are that faraway from me now.

In life, you don't always end up with the one you love.
Wednesday, December 02, 2009, 2:21 AM
I watched Mulan with Remus at AMK Hub today. The movie was a little draggy at the start but nevertheless, touching. Despite knowing the fact that it was going to be a sad ending through reviews, I actually liked the tear jerking ending. It reflects a lot about reality and it thought me something.

In life, you don't always end up with the one you love.

I thought about you again today. On the way out, I tried my luck and followed routes and went to places you might be but I didn't manage to catch a glimpse of you. Somehow, a part of me wants to see you again. A part of me hope that our paths will cross again, like how it brought us together.

But I wonder if I were to see you, how would I feel knowing that your heart has another? Would I be able to walk away feeling unaffected or will I just end up feeling empty, like a stranger you've never met?

I've been avoiding places we've been to and praying that our paths will never cross again, but today I wanted to see you again. For once. But I guess the more you hope for something, the more it never comes. Because if it was meant to be, it will be and forcing it to come your way, will never turn it into reality.

Today is a memorable day for you and her both, you really love her don't you? But does she love you the same way like I do?

Wounds that take a longer time to heal and scars that become reminders and reflections with age.
Friday, November 27, 2009, 1:49 AM
Blogs are misleading.

They reflect what you feel at the moment, not what you feel everyday. It's just a nagging thought at the back of your mind, you just want to get it out of your chest and channel out how you feel at that point.

I've found my closure and I don't miss you.

But can I say, that I've been thinking of you a little too much recently, or should I say the memories we shared?

I'm just tired and sick. I've been working too hard and I'm too exposed to the people around you and I've been hearing things about you. That's why.

I don't want you to pop into my mind every night before I sleep and I don't want you to be the last thought on my mind before I turn in.

Go away, take away those memories.





For a moment, just a moment.
Wednesday, November 18, 2009, 3:02 AM
They captured the moment, we lost the love and now I'm haunted by the memories.

Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never met.
Saturday, November 14, 2009, 3:19 AM
Facebook gave me a random quote today:

Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never met.

That totally matches how I feel tonight.

I wish I wouldn't have to come to know about what is happening in your life because knowing or not knowing doesn't change anything and knowing more only cuts the wound a little deeper each day when it's already healing. Therefore, I really wish I won't come to know about anything about you in any form but I still happen to see and hear it every now and then. That really makes me slip back from time to time, times like tonight. But I know it's a passing phase and it's just a form of emotion that overwhelms me for a minute, I'll be fine in no time.

The week has been busy and rather fulfilling and I've been out almost everyday. Even though it really tires me out, I feel really happy. That's because when I'm busy, there won't be a chance for me to think about anything and I can drift off to sleep easily because of how exhausted I am. This week wasn't perfect but I know it's improving and next week will be better.

It's been a month since you're gone and you seem happier without me, I will be happy too. :)


Words ain't cheap, they're free.
Wednesday, November 11, 2009, 10:38 AM
Back in school for my internship training on a Wednesday morning when I don't have any classes. Got to wake up as early as 7.45 am and that's way earlier than any normal schooling timings I've ever had.

Hopefully, the internship training sets a direction for me in my life because I don't really want to feel so lost on what to do with my future anymore. I want a better life, no longer a normal life. I just want everything to fall into place.

Feeling a little moody today because of some events that's happening around my friends recently and coincidentally, it sets me thinking about my life as a whole.

Just wondering, how come mankind tends to cheat in one way or another? Be it on a large or a small scale, it just tends to happen no matter how long a relationship is. Can there even be any trust between two person once it's being broken? If it's going to be broken, then why should there even be trust to start with?

It just sets me thinking from a women's point of view, how much trust we can afford to put in a relationship and how much we need to hold back at times. Having absolute trust in a person, will it backfire?

And worst of all, I'm beginning to have this screwed up mindset about men and their words because of what is happening around me. I cannot seem to believe and trust whatever they say. It's like every word spoken is just for the sake of saying to either flirt or to make me feel good in a way. Never a heartfelt word spoken with sincerity. It just seems harder to be able to trust their words and their flowery language. Saying it is easy but yet, they can't do anything to prove it with their actions.

Next time, I shall trust actions and never words, for words ain't cheap but free.

I saw something I shouldn't see this morning. Something I should no longer be bothered about. Blame it on my curiosity, it really does kill the cat and it just manage to kill another part of me.

Sigh, why is this happening?

The day you went away.
Tuesday, November 10, 2009, 12:45 AM

Well I wonder could it be
When I was dreaming 'bout you baby
You were dreaming of me
Call me crazy, call me blind
To still be suffering is stupid after all of this time

Did I lose my love to someone better
And does she love you like I do
I do, you know I really really do

Well hey
So much I need to say
Been lonely since the day
The day you went away
So sad but true
For me there's only you
Been crying since the day
The day you went away

I remember date and time
September twenty second
Sunday twenty five after nine
In the doorway with your case
No longer shouting at each other
There were tears on our faces

And we were letting go of something special
Something we'll never have again
I know, I guess I really really know

The day you went away
The day you went away

Why do we never know what we've got 'til it's gone
How could I carry on
The day you went away
Cause I've been missing you so much I have to say
Been crying since the day
The day you went away

The day you went away
The day you went away



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